Winnie ions revealed that he is still talking to his late wife Tanja, after he lost her to cancer in July 2019.
The former footballer, 55, told the Daily Star: “Every morning, I get up, make the bed and talk a little with Tan about what I do and how much I miss him. “Even now it’s one day at a time.”
He opened up about the publication of how he still struggles a lot with the loss of his beloved partner – who died at their home in Los Angeles.
Loss: Winnie ions reveals he is still talking to his late wife Tanya after losing her to cancer in July 2019 [pictured in 2007]
Winnie has since moved out of that home.
“I got closer to the friends of the golf club at Lake Toluca,” he said, adding that he relied on his friends for emotional support.
“I see mental health as the center of the wheel, with many arms. Every speech is a different kind of question, and mine happens to be sad. I deal with the help of my friends.
The former footballer, 55, told the Daily Star: “Every morning, I get up, make the bed and talk a little with Tan about what I do and how much I miss him. Even now is one day at a time ‘
“I went with the guys on a quiet break to Canada this summer. We did some fishing and talked. Some of them went through a lot with alcoholism, something I struggled with, and they gave me good advice. It was a nice environment to be in. ‘
In September, Winnie revealed that he believed the white light he saw the night Tanya died might have been a message from her.
In his book Lost Without You: Oving and Tanya’s Loss, Winnie recalled witnessing a strange light hovering over his home and said he was still struggling to explain it.
Message: Winnie reveals he believes the white light he saw the night his wife Tanya died may have been a message from her
He said: “The night Tens died, we were all sitting outside in the backyard … it was around midnight, a quiet, cloudy night with no moon.
“One by one, people were going to bed and I told them I would be there for a while. I wanted to smoke and see the darkness and be alone.
“While I was sitting there, I noticed a white light above me. I knew I could not be a star because of the cloud, but here it was – a simple white light above me. ‘
Winnie knew that when people lost someone they loved, they could start looking for signs from them, and he insisted that he “never believed in any of these things.”
Passing: The actor was open about his grief after his wife died at the age of 53 at their home in California last year after a six-year battle with cancer [pictured in 2010]
However, he was sure that the white light was real and also knew that it was not a star or a helicopter because it was too low.
He said: ‘I do not know why, but in my sorrow and despair I said to the light,’ Are you, baby? ‘
‘The light shone upon me; it does not waver, or change. Was it Dance? There was only one way to find out. I thought about all the times she would say, “Where is my kiss?” and I would throw one to catch her.
“So I did, right there in that dark garden – I threw the last kiss to the white light above me.
‘Suddenly, the light turned on, went down and floated, and then flew – zoom in! “He flew and turned and then disappeared away from me in that garden and left me alone again.”
He said: ‘I do not know why, but in my sorrow and despair I said to the light,’ Are you that, baby? ‘ [pictured in 2013]
Winnie added that since then he has checked and re-checked the weather forecast for that night, and in Los Angeles it was cloudy, the sun did not appear until noon the next day.
Winnie and Tanya met in childhood and tied the knot in 1994, and the actor recently admitted in Pierce Morgan’s Life Stories that he would never remarry.
Asked if she could ever remarry, Winnie admitted: “I think it is impossible to answer that question, but if you asked me if I could remarry, it would be impossible, she would not want that.
“There will be no other marriage Pierce, I can tell you that. “It was perfect and made for me.”
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